I lost our camera! That is why I haven't updated this week - so sad, we are going to try to get a new one or hope for a new one for Christmas. Below are some Christmas pics we took at my parents house - so cute. I am going to type info between them so my paragraphs will be separated.

Our meeting about foster care went well. The reality of the decision was disheartening but we still feel called by the Lord to take the next step. We turned in our application yesterday and will take the required classes. They said ideally you bring a child home 60-90 days after you apply - we'll see? The two things that were discouraging were that DHS is changing the face of foster care. They are wanting the foster parents and the bilogical parents to be involved with each other and they are wanting the foster parents to "teach" the biological parents how to improve their parenting. Scarry when you consider the number one reason for a child being placed in foster care in OK is abuse. The second thing that was discouraging was the inefficiency of DHS and how difficult they can be to work with. It reinforced that we cannot do this without it being God's best but that if He calls us to do it He has a reason! The morning of the meeting Josh was reading James 1 and the last verse (27) said the religion I accept is that of taking care of orphans and widows (something like that) then that night at the meeting the organization putting on the meeting shared that as their mission statement. Pretty cool confirmation for us.

We've hit a rough patch with James the past two weeks. Today he had me in uncontrollable tears. I got a toy staple gun to the temple. I wasn't crying out of pain as much as I was out of anger and despair. We feel we are doing all we know to do and it seems we are getting no where. I know it is a normal and healthy part of development but it doesn't make it any easier in the moment. Tonight I took a silver bell christmas ornament to the head. I just can't wait to get a foster kid that will hit me and throw things at me too! I really don't need any help decreasing my brain function! James also said he wants to send Kinley back because having a baby at his house is hard. We wanted to tell him that we want to send him back because having a three year old is hard - but we refrained.

Kinley is in the best stage, I am dreading the onset of discipline! She just smiles and talks all the time, eats great, sleeps pretty well, it's bliss!

We are going to Big Cedar tomorrow with Grandad and Nanna, we are so excited - we'll post when we get back.